More Waiting

I'm kind of in a stupper, today.Not sure what I feel, what to write, but I write just the same. I've figured it out....it's therapeutic for me. When I write, my thoughts seem to fall in line. Otherwise, all my thoughts and feelings get jumbled up with the facts.

For instance:

Feelings.... I feel helpless. I feel sad. I feel worried. I feel angry. I feel confused. And many more, but you get my point.

Thoughts....I think why is no one jumping on this. I think who or what else can be done. I think we're talking about someone's health here, get over the red tape already. I think circle the wagons, it's prayer time without ceasing. I think, I think, I think!!!!!

Facts........I know for a fact God is in control. I know for a fact He is not taken by surprise. I know for a fact He loves her more than we can even imagine loving someone. I know for a fact He will see her thru this one way or another. He will never leave her or forsake her.

See what I mean?? All of this is swimming around in my head along with the guilt of worrying, because I know who holds tomorrow. To type it out gives me clarity. Then it's possible to rely on God. I don't know how people get thru the tough times in life without that blessed assurance.

Her Dr. called this morning. All of the drs. she has talked with, agree with her, that my friend needs to go to MD Anderson. This is an answer to a question of whether she should search out another hospital. The 2nd opinion is in and it's still inconclusive. Sarcoma? or melanoma? They are treated different ways. Dr. told her as far as the long term cure aspect, the time this is taking is not an issue. This is incurable. Surgery is not an option. If it's sarcoma--they suspect it traveled from the heart, which means the mass on heart is cancer. If it's melanoma--then it traveled from her back where she had it in '97. From a man's perspective, it's looking hopeless...in her bone, nodules scattered in lung, and in the lymph node. She needs God's wisdom in choosing treatment, but before that, doctors need wisdom in knowing what they are dealing with!!!!

BUT from GOD'S perspective, this ain't His first rodeo!! She is resting in His hands and I am to do the same thing. A note from her:

Psalm 31:14-15a, "But as for me, I trust in You; O Lord, I say, 'You are my God.' My times are in Your hand...."; and so are yours if you are a child of God by faith in the Lord Jesus Christ and His work done on the cross for all of us. He loves each of you so much and has provided the only way for each of us to have an abundant life here on earth, and then to spend eternity in Heaven with Him (and our loved ones who have gone on) ---- and doing much, much more than floating around on a cloud or playing a harp, I can promise you that.

Just me trying to label this as best I see it. A friend loveth at all times.